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Coming To Terms  Growing up you meet a lot of different people and you son realize that some people live harder lives than others.  Some of my best friends lived and continue to live lives that you would neve even realize.  That’s something I’ve come to realize, everyone has ups and downs and I’ve also realized that I tend to be better fiends with people who have gone brought hard times.  Recently I went through a very rough time, for myself at least. Now looking back because it was only a few days ago I really am able to see who my friends are and who are the people that have a genuine interest in my life. What happened the other night, that I still have yet to come to terms with and once I do I will wore about it, it scared me.  I say this in as much as a positive way as I can but I’ve never felt so low. When I came out and I knew I needed people by my side and although I still haven’t told some of my friends what happened they have yet to even ask an...

Doing Things You Hate No when I say this I don't mean emptying the dishwasher when you don't want to I mean you doing and saying things that you look back on and go why would you do that.  Yeah, I have many times and my most recent one as a boy.  Not just any boy wobbly the only boy Ive ever really loved and I'm still in love with but he's horrible.  This boy has powers I swear he knows exactly what to say to make me feel like shit he knows just what to say to make me go into full panic mode.  Ive gone back to this boy over and over and over again for the past two years, overtime knowing fully well that i shouldn't. Please tell me I'm not the only one please tell me that there are other people who do things they know that will only hurt them in the end but still do them. Please tell me why we do this things, and how to stop.  I swear I don't know any better.  I know someone can treat me right and I know in the ed that everything happens for a reaso...